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Mountain
00:44
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Mountain
There's a pile of clothes on the floor,
Oh how I wish they were yours,
The oxygen escapes me when I think of those big brown eyes,
Everytime you cross my mind a part of me dies,
You are the second hand smoke in my lungs,
The cancer inside,
Falsely addictive,
And lethal,
You're so dangerous,
Holding your hand is barely legal,
I miss you so much that my bones ache,
Waiting for your embrace,
So wake my blood from it's slumber,
Keep me from getting any colder,
Break my fingers one by one,
Show me what i've been fighting for,
This is a battle that just cant be won,
Because damnit,
I'm freezing to death,
My lungs are collapsing,
Is this my final breath?
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2. |
Forgive Me...
02:04
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Forgive Me
Time slips out of my pocket,
It's like a shattered watch I tried to forget,
All hands stopped dead in their tracks,
As if the whole world stood still,
I pause for a moment because I still feel,
A deep longing for your forgiveness,
Like the trees long for the sun,
Or the autumn leaves that wait for the fall
Even though I'm just a man,
I feel the weight of my mistakes,
Like an anchor holding down my chest,
But I feel your hand pulling me up,
You make the numbness crawl out of my skin,
Making my body shake,
All the hands of my watch are still stopped on you,
I'll search for you until my last breath
I can't make it on my own
The sand in my hourglass has frozen,
Suspended in a state of confusion,
Mistaken for broken,
Sooner or later it'll float like a ship,
Finally making it out of rough seas,
Back into the harbour,
I just hope it'll carry you back on the tide,
Like the first gust of wind that brought me to your side,
Years ago,
Before I watched my world fall apart in front of me,
Right in front of me
I've got a lot of thoughts of you,
Just swimming in my mind,
Beating against currents in hopes,
Of finding calmer waters,
To a place where I can sleep at night,
Or form my thoughts into words,
For I can sing about how vague and confusing everything is,
But I can't seem to find my way without the sun in my sky
I can't make it on my own
Heavy with the weight of fear on my shoulders,
I hold on to the pillar of hope,
That one day I'll look out my window and find you,
Standing by a lamp post in a long forgotten alley,
And see you looking back at me,
Never changing,
Just how we met at the beginning of my story,
On fresh paper and wet ink,
I know you're waiting,
I knew once,
That the light above me will never fade,
In the most sincere way,
Lift the veil from my eyes,
Set me free
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3. |
Mother
01:06
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Mother
I refuse to see the light in the sky,
When the pulse under starts to die,
Unnatural warmth melts ice and snow,
You'd think we'd treat our mother better,
We should've known,
In an age of refinement we persist,
Killing our mother with every passing second,
Because of the mess we made,
Society has no scapegoat,
Just generations of mindless puppets,
Finishing the story you wrote,
Consuming until there's nothing left to take,
Watch as the mother severs our connection,
The earth will shake
Irreversible damage has been done,
The scarred surface of the world will revolt,
It will take back the home it gave us,
A war against the unfightable has begun
Mother take back what is yours,
Mother take back what we took,
Take it back,
Make us start over
Mother,
You've been hurt,
You've been used,
You've been beaten,
And you've been cursed,
By the creatures that can't get enough,
We abused your love,
We must lift you out of the filth,
We must lift you above
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4. |
Bright Lights
01:38
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Bright Lights
The silence doesn't kill me like it used to,
One day I won't need a saviour to put me on solid ground,
I won't need you,
I'll pull my self up with all the strength I have,
I just hope the rope I used to save my self doesn't start looking like a noose,
Like a friend,
Because the demon inside was once all that I am,
He was out for blood,
He was out for blood,
My whole life is just one big metaphor,
I'm so sick of the constant fear that I'll get bad again,
That I'll wake up face down on the floor,
One drink closer to the end,
But now I wake up every morning completely content with my life,
I can't handle losing that stability,
I can't lose my light
It's hard to hide your past,
When it's written all over your body,
Bone crushing pain,
Symptoms of a god damn lobotomy,
Every thing was wrong,
Every thing was lost,
I was left praying to a god I had stopped believing in,
"Dear God let me rot,
Put me six feet under the soil,
Bury the pain,
Bring my blood to boil,
Don't let me wake up breathing again,
I've had enough of life,
Amen"
When he failed at that,
I fell of the deep end,
I lost me bearing,
Started to sink back into depression,
Fuck the places my mind has taken me,
What's mine is mine,
And I took back my mind,
The devil on my shoulder can't convince me otherwise,
I hate the person I was,
And the place I resided in,
My life isn't over,
It's there for the taking
I just fear the fall,
If I trip again,
There will be no more miracles,
Don't stumble kid
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5. |
A Match to Dry Wood
00:43
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A Match to Dry Wood
Light the match in my heart,
Watch the forest as it burns,
I was never looking for your sympathy,
Just somebody to talk to,
But you think that I need tough love,
Do you even think,
When each word shakes me like an earthquake
And that was the moment,
The moment I recognized,
We aren't friends anymore,
We are just two people who talk sometimes,
Nothing more,
Nothing less
I love to call you my brother,
but sometimes I doubt it,
when I need a hand to pull me up,
in the end,
yours was never there to grab on to,
I never needed you to get past my demons,
I won the battle without you,
You were not what I needed
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6. |
Jump Ship
01:17
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Jump Ship
If the good die young,
I would live forever,
That can't be true,
I can't see myself living past december
No one hates me more than I hate myself,
I'm disgusted with how i've handled the cards I've been dealt,
Most nights I wish that this would all end,
Instead of my thoughts constantly burning through my head
I'm lost at sea,
With every breath I sink further,
How did I become this?
I'm sorry I disappointed you,
Mother, father,
When did my thoughts put a gun in my hands?
Do I shoot myself?
Let the demons win?
The barrel pressed to my temple,
I can almost taste the end
I never thought that I could dive so low,
A short drop and a sudden stop,
Might be all that my future holds,
How did I become everything I hate in the world
And if I leave this place,
Hold back your tears,
You should've cried them instead of turning your back to what you fear,
As I sank deeper and deeper,
You should've remembered that I don't know how to swim,
How could you make the decision to disappear?
But then again I don't blame you or anyone else for leaving,
The mess that I've made is my own,
Toxic and polluting,
I'm glad you jumped overboard when you did,
You might have went down with the ship
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7. |
Early November
01:36
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Early November
Sometimes I wonder what you're doing now,
If you've travelled or found love again,
But the truth is I don't really want to know,
Somethings are better left unsaid,
I choose ignorance over wanting to be dead,
And when the only friends I have,
Live inside my head,
It burns me under my skin to hear the voice inside whispering thoughts to me,
Where yours should be instead
You know, a week before we broke up, do you remember?
I had bought a book of poetry,
It must've been early november,
You asked why I didn’t read something more interesting,
More upbeat and less heartbreaking,
I felt my insides splinter,
Only your words can turn my blood to dust in the dead of winter,
I didn't know my heart could ache before I met you
I saw past that,
I saw past everything that you did,
Every time you made me feel stupid,
Every cut and bruise,
Darling, my life revolved around you
You used to tell me "I love you",
I tried saying it in the mirror to myself the other day,
But it sounded wrong without your mouth wrapped around it,
My skin crawls when the reality kicks in,
You might not ever say it to me again,
My life is a sad song without my best friend
I have never had so many bad nights,
Sitting in bed, completely alone,
The clothes you left here still smell like you,
It's kind of fucked up that they still smell like home
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8. |
The Sun
01:36
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The Sun
She looks away from his eyes,
Their love drifting way,
But he clings to the memory of better days,
He'll never let go
Lying awake all night,
Feeling the pain of the last words that you said,
Oh how they linger, how they linger in my head
Love can be a terrible thing,
The way it lingers in the light,
No matter what you do, you'll always feel the cold side,
The heat of the sun leaves,
But always returns,
The kiss of the rays on your skin,
But you can never really stop the burn,
No matter the pain,
The warmth always lingers,
Even without the flame
Familiar smiles take priority over every incedent,
Over every night filled with screaming,
Followed by the restless dreaming that things would get better,
Or finally end
Yet no matter how we look at it,
That time meant the world to them,
Who they were is still there,
Who they fell in love with
So the pick up the shattered pieces,
Try to make their picture a whole,
But the fact is known,
Their story has already been told
The love has seen their hearts,
The hears that held their soul,
Though the rest of their lives are spent apart,
What hides in the future remains untold,
This love has changed their lives,
At the end of the day,
They'll have a few scars to be consoled,
Mapping out the mistakes that gripped their throats
Lying awake all night,
Feeling the pain of the last words that you said,
Oh how they linger, how they linger in my head
Lying awake all night,
Feeling the pain of the last words that you said,
The look in your eyes marked the end,
The sun had finally set
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9. |
The Moon
01:36
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The Moon
Years left spent,
In the bitterness left you broke not bent,
No it's never enough to be hurt,
Emotionally drained from the pain,
Of thoughts of being alone leading to suicide,
Your life is more than a means to an end
I know the things you've done in the dark,
scars that you carry aren't the hardest to spot,
I know that you think I probably forgot the seconds on your clock,
Lost time is never found,
And I'm sorry for that,
But my hand is still there for you to grab,
I'll pick you up from the ground,
No matter the cost
Loneliness has become the acid thats eating you away,
A cold dose of medication to keep the demons from coming out to play,
But is the numbness in your heart ever going to leave?
How can you keep fighting another day,
If don't want to win?
Why can't you let me help you?
Why can't you let me get close?
Maybe it is because your heart is like broken shutters that are almost closed,
No matter how hard you tried to chain the darkness inside,
It had a way of filtering through,
Like the sun in early mornings,
And like the ivy that crept up the walls of your mind,
Through your bloodstream,
Through your veins,
Every day feels the same,
A constant cycle of pain
Just take my hand,
And we can wander the streets,
Picking apart the meaning of the feelings in our hearts,
Or simply forget about the world,
And listen to the ocean,
Or stare at the stars
Take life a day at a time,
Just like the moon,
You will survive,
You'll be okay soon
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10. |
False Freedom
00:44
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False Freedom
People should not fear their government,
What ever happened to "fear the people"?
Or the will to make the world better?
Cut the excuses, stop hiding the truth, I just want the world to know what's real,
What's the use of claiming freedom,
If you're not free?
When all I see is a struggle,
I see struggling for all the wrong reasons,
When did oil cause a war,
That takes precedence over feeding the poor,
or the funding of failing educational system?
I would like to think that the futures of the youth,
Are more important than personal growth,
But maybe I'm wrong,
Maybe morals are a thing of the past,
But when I see this crumbling country,
I can't help but think of how much longer it can last
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11. |
Lost Words
01:14
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Lost Words
"I don't know what to say,
I can't see a time where I'd be okay with living this way",
The words echoing from her mouth,
Hitting me with the weight of her depression,
Piercing the surface of my cracking paper skin,
Showing the broken and twisted interior I have tried holding within
The sadness in my heart crawls out like the sap from a tree in a dense forest,
A wound that can't be healed,
Not by time nor the will to forget,
The past is in the present when I stand in front of you,
A constant struggle to stand up on my weak knees,
A pain from which i'll never be free
"It's okay",
Holding back the waterfalls that tear at my soul,
Wearing me down from the inside out,
Collapsing my arteries,
"I know what we are,
And I know what we're not,
But darling in the end,
I think the seconds have already run down on our clock"
I silently watched as you lit the match in my heart,
You watched as the forest burned,
I was never prepared for what you made me learn,
I'm losing my grip
Keep me by your side,
I can take the pain you put me through,
Not the absence of you in my life
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